Sometimes I miss those days, those days of independence. I would wake up when a friend would call up, have non-stop chit chats, go for Scooty rides in rains with friends. Spending almost my entire life in a hostel, I have always had many friends. The independence when you don’t have any cares in the world and don’t exactly know where you are going is amazing.
Motherhood makes you extremely responsible and as a child I never thought about how my mom organizes things, manages three children, her husband and the house. I can’t even now imagine how she did it. Sometimes life feels trapped, like you cannot think beyond your daily tasks; I can’t even remember which movie I saw in the theatre last, or the last time I met a friend. These things don’t bother me a lot but there are days when I feel like wearing my tank top, that loose checked shirt with distressed jeans and my sneakers and just go somewhere where I wouldn’t have to plan everything. But I guess this is what marriage is actually-The trap ;).
I’ll tell you one more song celebrating the innocence of a girl, which is Awara Bhavre featuring Kajol from the movie Sapnay. She dances with friends and lives her life in that one song. What is common in these movies that they are all made in Hindi as well as Tamil and they all feature A.R. Rehman’s music. I guess Rehman can understand how a woman feels or celebrates independence/innocence.
Life is just like that when you look back, there are those amazing fun chapters, where you have lived your innocence and that moment of independence. You also know that it isn’t coming back but it can be relived in thoughts and memories and yes…these songs in a way transform me to my good times, so they help me reconnect with my youth and innocence. I am sure everybody has a way to relive that golden period of their lives as these moments should never be forgotten.They make you realize what you are actually and helps you bring back that innocence in some way. It may be indulging with our children when they play, may be fighting with friends just like that, each one of us needs to find our own ways and let that innocence not go from us. We should ask questions, we should be frank, not hide our feelings, express ourselves and sometimes we should just go and get wet in the rain without worrying about getting sick. Sometimes we should be what we are. Sometimes we should find our childhood with our kids; counting trees, counting the mangoes on the trees, watching thunder with the same innocence. Let’s not be lost, let’s be found.
I had written this article for Parentous originallly (published on july 9,2016) http://www.parentous.com/2016/07/09/lets-trap-innocence-of-a-child-priyanka/